At My Mom's.

Watching Teen Mom 2, which is apparently really awesome and relatable! Even though I'm not a teen mom, I can really feel a lot of the issues the girls deal with.

Anyway, we're moving in a few days, which means I get to hang out in my mom's house for a while until we get settled in because H and I really don't want DS to be around all the stuff and paint and etc. I'm excited but at the same time, it might be a pain in the butt to be in a 2nd floor walk-up as opposed to a townhouse. Hopefully we'll only be here for a year like H is promising. He thinks we'll be able to move into the house in a year, but I really don't want to set my heart on it, because when we moved into the townhouse we were only supposed to be there for a year, and it ended up being a year and a half, plus the year that we're spending in this upcoming 2 bedroom.

DS's rash is really horrible and I feel so terrible that I don't know what's causing it. I don't know what I can do to fix it. It's spreading around his arms and not even the steroid cream is helping. I really hope it's not my breastmilk, I would hate to have to switch to soy formula like my mom did with me when I was around 8 months old. Even then, there's a big difference. DS is only coming up on 4 months. I really need him to be on breastmilk for a while longer. However, I don't want it to be the cause of his rashes. I've stopped drinking milk, even though it's the only craving that has continued since I was pregnant. I've switched to lactose-free milk. Maybe my constant need to chocolate has something to do with it? Maybe it's the granola bars? I really didn't think that my diet could that severely affect him! There's not much I can eat these days, especially being winter and none of the good yummy fruits are available. Especially since I'm always on the run.

Thankfully I might be able to get a little bit more sleep tonight and tomorrow since I won't have to commute back and forth so much. I'm thinking I need to run up to the deli tomorrow and finally get that chicken caesar wrap I've been wanting for the past week but never had the time to get! That and a nice chai latte with soy milk from Starbucks. That should hopefully keep me awake for some of the day!

I want to start posting about so much background information, but honestly don't even know where to begin. The situation with H isn't the best, and always wavers from really great, to really horrible. This isn't gonna be the day to start though. DS is waking, so...off I go

Bite me: Student Teaching.

So. I started student teaching this week. It's interesting, but at the same time, really depressing.

I have to get up at 5:30am, to get to my mom's by 6:30, to get back to the school where I am by 7:45ish. I get out around 2:40, get to my mom's around 3:20 and after I finish pumping there, I get home around 5ish. RIDICULOUS.

By the time I get home, I'm exhausted and miss DS so much that I just want to sit with him all night! Unfortunately, H, who is sometimes forgiving, but sometimes also doesn't understand what I'm going through got angry that I had nothing to give him for lunch this morning. Apparently, since I was "home from 6pm, and was up until around 12am (not my choice), I should have been able to make him something".

Whatev.

Now apparently, we're moving. We live in a complex, and H has made the decision to sign a lease for a 2 bedroom, on the second floor of a walk-up, when I've already told him I don't want to live there. Oh, and the cherry on top? We have to move by the 9th. Of February. Isn't that a treat?

DS's eczema keeps coming back, but I think we've finally found the cause: my eating dairy. And we seem to have found a cure for the dry patchy skin: coconut oil!! Within 2 days, his rough forehead has indeed become, baby soft!!

I'm boring.