Sunday....sundae?

Ugh, well now that I typed that title, I feel like making an ice cream sundae...I don't have any of the ingredients, so that might not be happening.

Mmm, ice cream, whipped cream, fudge, maraschino cherries, peanuts, bananas....now I really want one, damnit.

So it's Sunday, the end of another monotonous week. My marshmallow is taking a nap, which he's been getting better about doing, maybe since his rash has gone away! I can't imagine what I'm going to do next week when I'll have to be leaving him EVERY DAY to student teach. Misery.

I feel like this blog is extremely boring. What can I do to spice it up? I can't just type about my boring life all the time, I'm sure it's not of interest to, well, anyone. I'm not even interested when I re-read my posts.

I'm gonna make a shout out to Nadine here, if she reads this - when you make a post, see the tabs at the top? Click on Monetize and active Adsense, and create an account, we'll be rolling in pennies soon enough! Apparently though, you can't click on your own ads, which upset me, because I planned to just do that 30 times a day. You wanna click on each other's? I'm up for it.

More later.

Success?

This is the second nap of the day I have put LO down for that he has fallen asleep on his own!! This is awesome success for us, because usually he nurses to sleep, but he doesn't seem to want to do that all the time anymore!

I recently bought him the blankey/bear toy thing - you know, the bear head and blanket attached? When I was pregnant, I thought "Who the hell would buy this for their kid?", but was reassured by my friend Alison who has it for her daughter. Lo and behold, he has taken to this toy like no other! He smiles whenever he sees it, and I've realized that it's been next to him both times he's fallen asleep! I'm guessing this is his security blanket now, so I'll have to make sure to bring it everywhere we go now (which is mostly just my mom's house)

I refuse to let MIL babysit because it's just an accident waiting to happen. Not to mention our relationship isn't the best. Maybe when he's older and can walk and eat on his own and will be able to tell her "No I don't want this!" or will be able to tell me "Grandma gave me this!", I'll feel a little better.

The only reason I actually even leave LO with my mom is that I know I can yell at her and tell her I want things done my way, I can't be so sure with MIL because she has the tendency to do things her own way, regardless.

I don't know why I'm sitting and posting right now, if LO is sleeping I could be doing something productive like, cleaning. Ugh, I loathe it. Can't it clean itself by now? H has left the house as I kind of kicked him out and then tried to make him feel bad about it, but whatever, it's his loss. He acts like he's punishing me, he's only punishing himself; he doesn't see LO that much as it is, he could have at least hung out with him so I could get something done, but whatever, it's just another sign for me that I should be able to do things for myself and not expect stuff from him. I'm not too upset, I'm so used to being alone it's scary, I can't really deal with him in my face all day, although ideally, I'd love to.

...More later, off to clean the bathroom.

Poor Marshmallow...

So, I'm not sure why I keep checking my posts for comments...I'm insecure!

Anyway, went to the pediatrician's yesterday with my cutie pie and it turns out the rash on his cheeks and the redness on his neck is baby eczema which really upset me. He referred me to a pedi. dermatologist and wrote out a weak steroid cream, which my parents told me not to fill, so I haven't as of yet. It seems to be going away on its own, but the doctor explained that there's something he's sensitive to - could be milk, so I just cut that out of my diet. I thought he would be gassy from milk, but thankfully he never really had bad colic, just crankiness. Never did I think that it could manifest in a rash!! I guess I should know better because I had skin allergies as a baby as well and H has had asthma since he was a kid. My mom bought some organic cream that it supposed to really help eczema and dryness, because LO has a lot of dryness on his legs and on his left arm. I wrote it off to "winter" and thought it would go away eventually, but it's not, even though I've been using Aquaphor everyday.

It also could be from my stupid self using the same blanket he uses outside under his head when he had a cold to elevate him a little bit. It helped him breathe, but caused this rash. I feel so guilty when my baby is in pain, I just wish I could make it all BETTER! He's sleeping off the last three nights today though, which I'm glad about because I've been getting up with him every other hour at night and it was killing me.

After H left to work this morning I took LO into my bed and hugged him and we slept another two hours together :)

I'm not looking forward to this weekend, at all because it's getting closer to student teaching, and I'm dreading it. How the crap am I going to leave my DS all day, every day? Props to you working mommies, I don't know HOW you do it. I have to deal with the crap from my mom now saying, "Oh you need to let him cry a little, he's too sensitive because he knows you'll be there the second he opens his mouth", "Oh I don't know what to do, he wakes up every time the phone rings"

...My solutions? Make the house phone ring tone lower. And give him more attention! I'm pretty sure her idea of attention is carrying him around on her shoulder until he passes out. I can't really imagine her really playing with him the way I do, although she does love him, and she does help me a lot.

Makes you really think, how much our mothers gave up for us to raise us. You really do only realize it once you're in the same shoes.

And now, nap? Or clean? Nap? Or clean? I think nap, although he has some mommy-relaxation radar and can detect the minute I close my eyes as that is the minute he opens his mouth and starts to cry...

Monetize...

So, I'm trying to figure this whole blog thing out, and the way I do it is by clicking on everything I see, so lo and behold, I see the "Monetize" feature.

Apparently, you can make money on your blog by adding ads to it. How much money do you think you can possibly make? Like 50 cents a day I'm guessing? Maybe I'll be able to buy a box of crackers by the end of the month with all the money I earn.

I'm sure if this was Oprah's blog, it'd be making millions...not like she really needs it.

That's ironic, isn't it?

Well, hello there!

So, I decided to jump on the blog bandwagon. I have a lot of thoughts and opinions about a lot of things, and I'm not sure if sharing them with my 3-month-old son really counts, so here it will go, into the abyss that is the internet. Maybe people will actually read this and enjoy it, and maybe people will read this and say "Wow, what a bitch!". I hope there won't be too many of the latter, though!

Anyway, a short introduction: I'm a 22-year-old new mom, with a 3-month old awesome son :)

I currently live with my husband; we've been married since August of '09. I am a graduate student, getting my Master's in Elementary Education and my husband is a supervisor at a homecare agency, but is currently in the long, arduous process of trying to open up his own agency.

I'm not too used to sharing a bunch of details about myself, so I guess it will be a while until I get into the swing of this blogging business. I hope this'll actually be interesting-ish to someone out there.